I’ve been carrying Legend for almost 2 years now. First in my womb and now in my arms. I use to carry him everywhere in a carrier before he got a g-button placed in his stomach. In the womb, he was unable to sustain his own life so I did all that I could to provide him with a healthy temporary home in there. Now he’s unable to sit up independently, crawl, or walk yet so I carry him as often as I can to make sure that he’s supported and gets around. This reminded me that God does the exact same thing for me by carrying me when I’m unable to carry myself which is really all of the time. I actually talk more about this in a previous blog, My Soul Teacher Lesson #4: The Carrier .
Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in the time of need-Hebrews 4:16
Last month I set my intention to focus in the area of faith and build mine stronger. While I was building faith, little did I know that God would be dealing with me in the area of grace. That rhymes huh? It’s the poet in me. Anyway I had no idea about this layer of ego that I needed to shed. Somehow I believed that I’ve had to earn God’s grace and love and when it shows up that I’ve done good enough to receive it. The truth about grace is that it is both unearned and undeserved. God simply extends grace to me because I’m his child, not because of anything spectacular that I’ve done. Similar to me carrying Legend, sure he’s more than amazing, but it’s not because of what he’s done that makes me love him. The only criteria for me to pour out unconditional love and infinite grace to him is him being my child, an extension of me. Because we are all extensions of the Creator then that makes us all connected too. We should also give grace to one another even if we feel the other party does not deserve it. You know like giving friends and family another chance to get it right after they’ve done something to offend us instead of cutting them off?
Dear brothers and sisters, if another believer is overcome by some sin, you who are godly should gently and humbly help that person back onto the right path. And be careful not to fall into the same temptation yourself. Share each other’s burdens and in this way obey the law of Christ.
This spoke to me even louder as I reflected on my marriage. I’m guilty sometimes of holding a grudge or getting overly upset when my husband does something that I don’t want him to do. Instead I should be quick to give him grace in the name of love. My relationship with my husband is the most important human relationship that I have. Without our union, our children wouldn’t exist.
But to each one of us grace has been given as Christ appointed it-Ephesians 4:7
After being convicted and receiving the lessons about grace in my relationship with God, my husband, and others, I was brought back to faith. I can imagine that Legend has a certain amount of faith in me considering that whenever I go to pick him up he never looks afraid or unsure. He knows that I’m going to carry him without dropping him. I’ve realized that I should be confident in my faith in God and that his grace abounds freely. By this same grace we are able to do everything with God’s strength and power, not our works alone. I’m thankful for this lesson inspired by Legend Ezekiel {Ezekiel means God strengthens}. I’m even more grateful that I always have access to God’s grace. All I have to do is believe.
Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, my power is made perfect in weakness.” -2 Corinthians !2:8-9